Who am I & What I Want
Saturday, September 20, 2008♥
Last night, I was watching "What A Girl Wants" by Amanda Bynes. It got me thinking......
Who am I?
Who will be walking me down the isle the day i get married?
Will I have a chance to do the father and daughter dance part?
Do I have family who loves me attending my wedding day?
Do I have best friends who love me and be my Maid of Honor?
Without all these......
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......Will my wedding day be perfect?
Friday, September 19, 2008♥
Life & Faith
Wednesday, September 17, 2008♥
I woke up this morning and something I read make me realised how silly i am to actually putting so much loves and cares in some people in this world. Guess I am still not ready to come out the real world and survive and be the best and protect myself from certain people. Never trust anyone in this world from only what you sees and what you heard. Mr. Jana was right. There are always two side of stories you should hear and not just one side of it because you would never know the truth if you dont.
From now on, I must always remind myself, NEVER tell anyone about your trouble. Because in front of you they will be like "oh-my I'm so sorry" kinda reaction to you and try to act helpful. But behind you back, they will just laugh at you for being so stupidly helpless and pityful and they might even call you a liar who is full of shit.
Anyone can try and place their foot on your neck. Only you can lower your neck far enough to let them reach it.
MUST:
- Never feel pityful for the other, because you are not that great!
- Never allow anyone to make you believe they are more or you are less than what you really are.
- Never show how weak you are, because you will not ask for pityness!
- Never put high hopes on someone, because you are just demanding on something you wish.
- Never run away from trouble, because it is a route God have chosen for you to become stronger.
- Never be so blindly naive and kind to everyone in this world, because they will never appreaciate the things you do.
- Never neglect what you have now in the present, live your life for the present and not the future, because it will be too late to regret by the time you realised.
- Never doubt your faith to God, because He will never let you down. Never ever.
"Faith enables persons to be persons because it lets God be God." ~Carter Lindberg
God keep you strong.
I must thank God for giving me one thing in my life that no one else have. A man who loves me.
WHY?!
Tuesday, September 16, 2008♥
I'm really upset today. Something that have been disturbing my mind for the past few days and I couldnt focus in class. I tried to go to sleep but I just cant take my mind off it. I felt like crying out loud and just yell at everybody : "WHY?!"
Why do people keep on assuming I'm a hypocrite? Do i have to fucking tell it right in front of your fucking face that I am NOT a fucking hypocrite to satisfy you fucking moron? You call yourself a friend of mine? You must be kidding me.
Why cant I have a friend that I can always count on? Why do I always see people having each other back, but mine. I have experienced so many times in my life. That I can only se how close people can be with their friends, but me, I'm always being left out. I feel like trash. No one important in life. I'm not being childish, but I fell so hurtful that I would cry but no one would knows or even care about.
You people are the hypocrite. You people give fake hope that you can never afford to. Why do you have to let down someone who put hopes on you? Why must you hurt people this way? What is God trying to tell me? I feel so far apart from you Father. Are you gonna let me down too?......
My 21st Surprise Birthday Party!
Saturday, September 13, 2008♥
Finally! I get the time to update my blog. Sorry for the holding peeps! Hehehehhe! Here's the most important moments in my life.
This year, I officially turn 21 years old on 6th of September. It's the most important birthday in my life time and also the very first surprise birthday party I ever had. I would love to take this chance here to thanks all my lovely friends who spent my birthday with me *Huggles* It really mean a lot to me that you guys are always there for me. Special thanks to my dearest friend Elaine & Kelly, you both have been taking care of me. Geeeez! You all nearly make me cry. Hahahaha! As for my Huggy Bear, all I can say is I love you! Thank you so much for the lovely party and I know it cost you a big bomb! I will never forget this moment in my life =) Muaks!
Me & darling Kelly Tan!
Thanks for the kiss babe! =P
Me & my darling darling!
Me & Jessica
The sweetest girl I ever met
Me & Brenda
The most adorable girl "P
Me & Jett Kyii cutie
You all should hear her sing! Lolx!
Me & E-Shien
Me & My Dear Huggy Bear
Everyone is having FUN! =)
The couple corner
The Gang!
Me & my big big pressie!
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I nearly cried when I saw the pressie inside!
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Hippo Hippo! Muaks!
Sexy lingerie from my dear friends. Love it!
Thanks babe =)
A kiss for my precious DearDear
Ciaoz!
Breathless
Thursday, September 4, 2008♥
Love this song! The lyric is simply touching and beutifully done.
Shayne Ward - Breathless lyrics
If our love was a fairy tale
I would charge in and rescue you
On a yacht baby we would sail
To an island where we’d say I do
And if we had babies they would look like you
It’d be so beautiful if that came true
You don’t even know how very special you are
[Chorus]
You leave me breathless
You’re everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can’t believe that you’re mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you’re leaving me
Breathless
And if our love was a story book
We would meet on the very first page
The last chapter would be about
How I’m thankful for the life we’ve made
And if we had babies they would have your eyes
I would fall deeper watching you give life
You don’t even know how very special you are
You leave me breathless
You’re everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can’t believe that you’re mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you’re leaving me
You must have been sent from heaven to earth to change me
You’re like an angel
The thing that I feel is stronger than love believe me
You’re something special
I only hope that I’ll one day deserve what you’ve given me
But all I can do is try
Every day of my life
You leave me breathless
You’re everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can’t believe that you’re mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you’re leaving me
Breathless
You leave me breathless
You’re everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can’t believe that you’re mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you’re leaving me
Breathless
Random
Monday, September 1, 2008♥
It funny how you trust someone so much
but in the end just get yourself hurt.
Things that you doesnt know about, doesnt mean it would never get to you and cut you deep enough to hurt you.
It's funny how people could hide all the sorrow and pain inside their heart
and
tell you everything is fine.
It's funny how surprise you would get
when
you found out about the truth.
It's funny how people would ended up apologise
for nothing wrong they have done.
It's funny how people could pretend
nothing have happended.
It's funny how people could love someone so much
but wants to leave them, and vanished from the world.
