♥ My Memoirs ♥

The Unit

2010-03-02T19:04:00.002+08:00

Believe it or not, I'm right now watching The Unit, an action drama that follows a covert team of Special Forces!

It's definitely not the usual me who watch action movies but I have to agree, this one is a good one to watch. *smiles*

It's Time

2010-01-29T21:49:00.008+08:00

Lots happened lately. Mostly are depressing, maybe it's because I only remember those. I lost a dear friend, over some emotions argument. I was like a volcano turned active after holding my feeling back for a long long time. I remembered asking her a question when we were 15, "Do you think we will still be friend after 10 years from now?" She said: "No, I don't think so. It's hard to say." But I answered with a smile: "I think we will be good friend, for a very long time." Apparently what she said came true.

It should not be difficult for me to let go. Because I was too angry to be sad. I did missed her. I felt heart sick whenever I see pictures of us together, which were plenty of them. She was practically in my life.

That night, I cried, tears dropping down my cheek like a pipe busting out of explosion after being compressed for a long time. I asked myself, what happened? She gave up our friendship. It's her lost, It's what I kept reminding myself. When we were friend, she never ask how I feel or how do I do? Many things she never do or did for me, as a friend.

"Though friends should be there to help each other when things get tough, they also should not abuse that support and take it for granted. In fact, because you are her best friend, she should of all person, treat you better than anybody else." says Kali Hume.

Despise of all anger I had, I took a chance of letting all go. I messaged her that night. I told her I was sorry and I misses her. I wanted to talk. There was no reply from her. I stopped crying because I know It's finally over. I've got my answer.

This may not be something I can easily let go or erased out of my life. My heart hurts like a hole was punched in it and a friend told me, It takes time to heal. A scar will be there after it's done and sometime, It will remind you the pain you have gone through. But when you look back by that time, you will be alright.

It's time to let go. Time for you to try to break through.

It's time to make myself happy instead of others.

FOURSKIN SCAM

2009-05-11T22:22:00.007+08:00

I have been wanting to have a pair of HIGH WAIST PANTS since the beginning of the year. But I never have a chance to find one that I like. Or I have absolutely no idea where to get a good looking one with a reasonable price. Recently I read the CLEO magagine(March 2009) and I found out that FOURSKIN have quite a few of decent pair of high waist jeans. Still, knowing where to get it, I can't seem to find the time to check it out.

*Grins*

So what kept me so busy?
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[...] Sweet princess...

if through this wicked witch's trick,
a spindle should your finger prick...
a ray of hope there still may be in this,
the gift I give to thee.

Not in death,
but just in sleep,
this fateful prophecy you'll keep.
And from this slumber you shall wake,
when true love's kiss,
the spell shall break [...]
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ROFL!

I was the SLEEPING BEAUTY.
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Anyway, last weekend, I finally got myself to check it out!

Yeap I tried it out,

I like it,

and I should have just bought it! 

NOW I will never have the chance to

because the price now have gone up

from RM79.90 to RM159.90!



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Yes believe it, nowadays things like this happened quite often. It's not like we are stupid or something?

We are female, female loves shopping!

We will never forget what we want, and most importantly, how much was it! How could the exact same pants price got increased by almost 200% in less than 7 days? Seriously.......clearly it's a SCAM! Tsk Tsk Tsk!

Damn it! So becareful ladies!

Shop wisely, no regrets!
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I can barely open up my eyes but still I'm determined to finish this post! Oh boy, I wanna sleep. I'm so sleepy.


*Floating away to my dream dreamy land*

WAIT!
Click "PUBLISH POST"

The Best and The Worst Brain Foods

2009-05-07T15:22:00.017+08:00

Final exams is in 3 weeks time. Yeap! And I am supposed to be studying instead of surfing the internet and blogging. *Grins*

Anyway, I came across this article in Yahoo! Thought it might be useful for most of you, since the most of us are having our exam soon.

This article is written by Daivd Zinczenko with Matt Goulding for Men's Health Magazine. *Claps claps!* And it was rated 98% useful by the readers.

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For the coffee lovers! Coffee is chosen as one of the brain health food! Wooohooo!

Fresh-brewed coffee enhance short-term memory performance. Yeap yeap yeap! Caffeine have been shown to slow down the aging process. Just one cup of coffee helps improve attentions and problems solving. Sounds magical to me. Hahahaha!

I was never a big fan of coffee. Just by smelling it, I can easily get a headache. Probably it's the smell of caffeine that makes me feel sick. But right after I read this article, I told myself that I must start drinking coffee. *Grins* Sadly, I made horrible coffee, too thick, too sweet! >.<

NOTE THAT! Ever heard of the concept "Too much of good things"? Haha! If you OD with caffeine, you can mess with your sleeping schedule. Sleep is reboot time for you mental computer, so you don't want to mess with that!

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Yummie-licious blueberries for the berries lovers!

Eat this to enhance long-term memory! Antioxidants in blueberries help protect the brain from free-radical damage and cut your risk of Alzheimer’s and Parkinson’s diseases. Hear that baby?! Eat more blueberries!!!!!

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To think faster, eat salmon!

Put salmon on your grocery list! The omega-3 fatty acids found in fatty fishes are a primary building block of brain tissue, so they’ll amp up your thinking power.

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One of my favourite, low-fat yogurt!

According to the article, scientists in Slovakia gave people 3 grams each of two amino acids—lysine and arginine—or a placebo, and asked them to deliver a speech. Blood measurements of stress hormones revealed that the amino acid-fortified guys were half as anxious during and after the speech as those who took the placebo. Yogurt is one of the best food sources of lysine.

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My Dear Dear's least favourite, peppermint tea. *Winks*

Peppermint tea enhance the concentration level of our brain. One study found that peppermint makes drivers more alert and less anxious.
Tsk Tsk Tsk! No wonder my Dear Dear can't concentrate at anything at all!!!!! Must poison his drink with peppermint next time. *Evil grins*

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Now, let us look at the bad foods for our precious brain!

Unfortunately, for the ice cream lovers. Say no no to full-fat ice cream.

Not all fats are created equal: Beware foods high in saturated fats, which can clog blood vessels and prevent the flow of nutrients and blood to the brain. Ice cream is not a brain-health food.

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SODA

People who drink 2½ cans of soda daily are three times more likely to be depressed and anxious, compared with those who drink fewer.

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For the chocolate lovers, be wise to chose what type of chocolate is best for you. Therefore, say no no to white chocolate!

White chocolate isn't real chocolate at all! Grab the real thing, the darker the better.

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Edited by: Emily

Let's Compare!

2009-05-05T14:19:00.003+08:00

Wolfie

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Bunnie

Which is cuter?
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Duh!
Definately the bunnies!

Look how cute the bunnies are!
The fluffy fur
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the chubby cheek!

Take That The Circus

2009-05-04T22:02:00.003+08:00

I bought the album without knowing who they really are. I have never heard of any of their song before this. Even if I did, I did not know it was them.
Just by surprise, or fate, I bought the album.
The first time I listen to it. I felt like the song is flowing into me.
I felt so peaceful,
and I smiled.
I'm in love with them. I'm in love with the songs.
It is a perfect piece of album.

Bad Days

2008-10-16T16:51:00.005+08:00

Lately, there have been a lot of bad things happening to me. It's like never ending. I was feeling depressed and clueless of what should be done. Being hurt by someone who i thought was a friend of mine. You can never imagine how hurtful it is, being hurt so badly till I had to stay away, far away so I wont tears anymore. Maybe I'm being noticing by God finally. Maybe I should change and become someone bitchy, mean and evil, so I will never get hurt again.

Rainy season is just NOT my day. I hate raining. It's gloomy, sad, disturbing and wet. It makes me feel sick.

Yesterday, our car got into a "hit and run" accident. Dear and I went to Pathlab to do body health check up. After one and a half hour, we found out the back of our car got hit by some irresponsible driver. The whole back light of the car came off. SIGH! What kind of person does this kind of thing?!

After minutes of stoning starring at the damage of the car, we saw another accident on the way to Mid Valley, another "hit and run", but this time, a man died.

When I saw the dead body lying in the middle of the road. I felt really sick. Instead of going to MV, we headed straight home. I was thinking, what is God trying to tell me?! I was freak out and scared and worried.

Whatever is it, I really hope everything will be fine soon. However, I must thank God for my ECG result, it turns out my heart is perfectly healthy. Now, I don't have to worry that I might just dropped dead and die at anytime. Thanks Dr. Fredrick! and Thank You Father!

My friend Sue Ann used to tell me, "P-U-S-H" = Pray Until Something Happend. For God will always listen to his children prayers and He will never leave us. Everything He does, He does it for a good reason, He does it for us. Just pray hard.

"DEAR GOD, PLEASE MAKE IT STOP, AMEN."

Tagged By Dini & JW

2008-10-12T14:35:00.004+08:00

1. Who are you?
Who am i? Well, I'm a girl who is being loved by one she truly love. I'm a girl who is seeking for perfection. I'm a girl who's way too sensitive to be allowed living in this world.

2. Who is more important to you? Friends or boy/girlfriend?
My Huggy Bear.

3. How often do you think of committing suicide?
I only think of me should never be born in this world.

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
No. I doubt myself all the time.

5. How many babies you want?
Two. (A boy and a girl)

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
Yes. I always wonder what's at the end of the rainbow?

7. What is your goal for this year?
Live life happily.

8. Do you believe in eternity love?
Explain eternity? Lolx! I believe in love till the moment of death =)

9. What's a perfect boyfriend like to you? (List 10)

Someone who love me and only me
Someone who is responsible
Someone who is caring
Someone who wants to have a future with me
Someone who have faith in himself
Someone who can make me laugh
Someone who willing to sacrifice for me
Someone who is smart but not cunning
Someone who is romantic and full of surprises
Someone who pamper me all the time

*And that someone = ASHLEY* =)

10. What feeling do you love most?
Being love by family and friends.

11. What are the requirements you wish from the other half?
I have no idea.

12. Is there anything you wanna tell the people you hate ?
"If you have it, flaunt it", am I right?

13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
Yes. If the other party cherish it too.

14. What does flying means to you?
Freedom =)

15. What do you crave for the most currently?
An apartment of my own.

16. Who's hotter?Chace Crawford or Kevin Peake?
Chace Crawford!

17. Describe the person who tagged you in 5 words.
Hmmm I'm tagged by two person =.=
@Dini : Talkertive, sarcastic, friendly, cute, smart
@JW : Bright, lovely, friendly, blur, cute

18. What have you done to yourself to make yourself happy?
I shop till I get broke, and then I'm sad again.

19. If time were to rewind, when will you want it to be?
When I was one. So that I can tell my father not to drive the day he had the accident?

20. What are your fear(s)?
Death of loves one.

Instructions: Tag 8 people. List them out at the end of the post. Notify them in their cbox that they've been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.
People i tagged :

Ashley(Huggy bear)
Ashton(Panda boy)
Zyan
Shelvin
Sabrina Yeen
Ju Reen
Jun Lee
Sammi
Jasmine
Catherine

Who am I & What I Want

2008-09-20T16:22:00.011+08:00

Last night, I was watching "What A Girl Wants" by Amanda Bynes. It got me thinking......

Who am I?

Who will be walking me down the isle the day i get married?

Will I have a chance to do the father and daughter dance part?

Do I have family who loves me attending my wedding day?

Do I have best friends who love me and be my Maid of Honor?

Without all these......

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2008-09-19T18:54:00.001+08:00

Life & Faith

2008-09-17T12:55:00.007+08:00

I woke up this morning and something I read make me realised how silly i am to actually putting so much loves and cares in some people in this world. Guess I am still not ready to come out the real world and survive and be the best and protect myself from certain people. Never trust anyone in this world from only what you sees and what you heard. Mr. Jana was right. There are always two side of stories you should hear and not just one side of it because you would never know the truth if you dont.

From now on, I must always remind myself, NEVER tell anyone about your trouble. Because in front of you they will be like "oh-my I'm so sorry" kinda reaction to you and try to act helpful. But behind you back, they will just laugh at you for being so stupidly helpless and pityful and they might even call you a liar who is full of shit.

Anyone can try and place their foot on your neck. Only you can lower your neck far enough to let them reach it.

MUST:

Never feel pityful for the other, because you are not that great!

Never allow anyone to make you believe they are more or you are less than what you really are.

Never show how weak you are, because you will not ask for pityness!

Never put high hopes on someone, because you are just demanding on something you wish.

Never run away from trouble, because it is a route God have chosen for you to become stronger.

Never be so blindly naive and kind to everyone in this world, because they will never appreaciate the things you do.

Never neglect what you have now in the present, live your life for the present and not the future, because it will be too late to regret by the time you realised.

Never doubt your faith to God, because He will never let you down. Never ever.

"Faith enables persons to be persons because it lets God be God." ~Carter Lindberg

God keep you strong.

I must thank God for giving me one thing in my life that no one else have. A man who loves me.

WHY?!

2008-09-16T01:14:00.004+08:00

I'm really upset today. Something that have been disturbing my mind for the past few days and I couldnt focus in class. I tried to go to sleep but I just cant take my mind off it. I felt like crying out loud and just yell at everybody : "WHY?!"

Why do people keep on assuming I'm a hypocrite? Do i have to fucking tell it right in front of your fucking face that I am NOT a fucking hypocrite to satisfy you fucking moron? You call yourself a friend of mine? You must be kidding me.

Why cant I have a friend that I can always count on? Why do I always see people having each other back, but mine. I have experienced so many times in my life. That I can only se how close people can be with their friends, but me, I'm always being left out. I feel like trash. No one important in life. I'm not being childish, but I fell so hurtful that I would cry but no one would knows or even care about.

You people are the hypocrite. You people give fake hope that you can never afford to. Why do you have to let down someone who put hopes on you? Why must you hurt people this way? What is God trying to tell me? I feel so far apart from you Father. Are you gonna let me down too?......

My 21st Surprise Birthday Party!

2008-09-13T15:09:00.013+08:00

Finally! I get the time to update my blog. Sorry for the holding peeps! Hehehehhe! Here's the most important moments in my life.

This year, I officially turn 21 years old on 6th of September. It's the most important birthday in my life time and also the very first surprise birthday party I ever had. I would love to take this chance here to thanks all my lovely friends who spent my birthday with me *Huggles* It really mean a lot to me that you guys are always there for me. Special thanks to my dearest friend Elaine & Kelly, you both have been taking care of me. Geeeez! You all nearly make me cry. Hahahaha! As for my Huggy Bear, all I can say is I love you! Thank you so much for the lovely party and I know it cost you a big bomb! I will never forget this moment in my life =) Muaks!

Me & darling Kelly Tan!
Thanks for the kiss babe! =P

Me & my darling darling!

Me & Jessica

The sweetest girl I ever met

Me & Brenda
The most adorable girl "P

Me & Jett Kyii cutie
You all should hear her sing! Lolx!

Me & E-Shien

Me & My Dear Huggy Bear

Everyone is having FUN! =)


The couple corner

The Gang!

Me & my big big pressie!

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I nearly cried when I saw the pressie inside!


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Hippo Hippo! Muaks!

Sexy lingerie from my dear friends. Love it!

Thanks babe =)

A kiss for my precious DearDear


Ciaoz!

Breathless

2008-09-04T00:47:00.003+08:00

Love this song! The lyric is simply touching and beutifully done.

Shayne Ward - Breathless lyrics

If our love was a fairy tale
I would charge in and rescue you
On a yacht baby we would sail
To an island where we’d say I do

And if we had babies they would look like you
It’d be so beautiful if that came true
You don’t even know how very special you are

[Chorus]

You leave me breathless
You’re everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can’t believe that you’re mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you’re leaving me
Breathless

And if our love was a story book
We would meet on the very first page
The last chapter would be about
How I’m thankful for the life we’ve made

And if we had babies they would have your eyes
I would fall deeper watching you give life
You don’t even know how very special you are

You leave me breathless
You’re everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can’t believe that you’re mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you’re leaving me

You must have been sent from heaven to earth to change me
You’re like an angel
The thing that I feel is stronger than love believe me
You’re something special
I only hope that I’ll one day deserve what you’ve given me
But all I can do is try
Every day of my life

You leave me breathless
You’re everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can’t believe that you’re mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you’re leaving me
Breathless

You leave me breathless
You’re everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can’t believe that you’re mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you’re leaving me
Breathless

Random

2008-09-01T19:37:00.004+08:00

It funny how you trust someone so much
but in the end just get yourself hurt.

Things that you doesnt know about, doesnt mean it would never get to you and cut you deep enough to hurt you.

It's funny how people could hide all the sorrow and pain inside their heart
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tell you everything is fine.

It's funny how surprise you would get
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you found out about the truth.

It's funny how people would ended up apologise
for nothing wrong they have done.

It's funny how people could pretend
nothing have happended.

It's funny how people could love someone so much
but wants to leave them, and vanished from the world.

Goodbye PeetPeet

2008-08-03T19:21:00.003+08:00

I came home today around evening found my hamster, Peet Peet is dead. I was speechless as I didnt realised that he was not feeling well. The day before I saw him looking unconcious as he was walking around the cage with his eyes closed. Funny enough I was cracking jokes about him sleep walking. I kinda glad that he is gone, to a better place. I was never a good owner to him. I neglected him most of the time. I'm sorry. Goodbye little fellow. May you R.I.P. I'll miss you.

Peet Peet
29th June 2006 - 3rd August 2008

Friends

2008-07-31T18:21:00.007+08:00

During Ms.Wong class today. She asked us a question, "What make us happy when we go to Uni?". The first thing that came into my mind is FRIENDS. =) I'm glad to be given a chance to meet all of you and that one day when I look back, It would definately be the most memorable moment in our life. Most of all, I'm really glad to have friends who loves me and take good care of me. Love you all so much! Mwah! ♥ A special thanks to Elaine and Kelly Tan for always keeping a seat for me. Haha! Thanks girls! Would not be able to see those words on the whiteboard if I'm sitting at the back. You girls have been such a great friend to me that I cant describe It in words.

Well, hopefully we would all go through sweet and sour, spicy and bitter moment together and one day we would all grauduates and I must say no one should live their life without a friend. Because at the end of the day, friends will always be there for you whenever you need them. And I will be there for you =) Always.

*For my friends whose picture are not being displayed here I must say It doesnt mean you are not an important friend to me. =) I may simply just dont have your photo with me but you will always be in my heart.♥ *lovelove*

Indian Numerology

2008-07-30T17:45:00.003+08:00

Thanks to Elaine I got the link from her blog =) So I found the characteristic about my personality by using my date of birth on the website.

Here is the result:

My Psychic number is 6 where It's a number reveals the way we look at ourself and It defines our basic character.

Psychic Number 6

Loving and caring. Everybody's friends.

Charming / Beauty Orientated. Balanced yet paradoxical in self expression.

Counselor. Nurturing Home-Maker. Sympathetic.

Service orientated yet Independent.

Periodical bouts of Luxury Seeking.

Artistic. Attractive. Pleasant Personality. Open Minded & Open Hearted.

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Whereby my Destiny number is 4 where It's a number indicates how a person is viewed by the world and is related to our KARMA!

Destiny Number 4

Highly Intelligent. Can get organized when least expected.

Chase the Impossible Dream, Yearn For Freedom.

Feel easily Restricted.

Helpful, community minded yet very private, make anonymous donations to the unconventional causes.

Unsuccessful in matters of love, difficulties with intimacy (=.=)

Serious, know how to enjoy good life yet never satisfied and wanting more.

Strong likes and dislikes, will support the oppositions.

No security minded, doubting, lonely.

Have substantial knowledge at their fingertips. Non sharing.

Part of the numerology truly describe me. =) This is fun but i dont really believe in it. There are millions of people in this world sharing the same number and if everyone is exactly how the number describe as they are. Well then everyone would turn out to have the exact same personaliy and there will be no such word as "unique".

Chris Daughtry Concert Tonight!

2008-07-26T11:12:00.004+08:00

Cant say I'm a huge fan of Chris Daughtry but he used to be one of my favourite male idol during his season.

This morning around 10.30am. Dear received a fabulous wake up call from Christian, his best buddy which we havent heard from him in long time. Asking if he's interested in working at Chris Daughtry concert tonight. Phew! And he's willing to give me two passes into the concert! *Jumpie Jumpie!*

So I guess whoever is going to the concert tonight. I'll see you there ya! Chaoz!

Picture taken by Ashley Yap =)

Cry Baby

2008-07-24T18:09:00.003+08:00

Gosh! I am watching OTH now and I'm crying like a cry baby. How people in this world could deal with the feeling of losing the love of their life. I can never imagine how it fells. It would be like heart broken into pieces. Gone. Forever.

Anyway, stop being so sobber already u cry baby! GaaaRrrr!
Alright alright...

Well, we went to Agefuku with Dear for lunch again. Almost every Thursday we will be having lunch there after my Uni. You guys should try it out sometime later. The foods really taste good plus the prices are reasonable. I still cant believe I actually proposed to the manager that they should open one of their branch in Sunway Uni. Hahahaha!

Bimbimbap set lunch for RM15
comes with Misou soup, Green Tea & Fruits.

Fruits that come with the set.

Yakhiniku Burger for RM8
(sry I forgot to take a picture of it =.=)

Japanese Ice Dessert (complimentary from chef ^^)

Lastly
My Huggie Bear
with a "sour" face who's really hungry.
Hahaha!

JuReen 21st! @ Luna Bar

2008-07-22T17:46:00.010+08:00

Cheers for the birthday girl!

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A night view of the city.

Last Friday, I was invited to Ju Reen 21st birthday party @ Luna Bar. Not only my first time @ Luna but also my first taste for Chivas. Never really like drinking except for wine. Haha! However, I'm really glad that I have a chance to meet Ju Reen. But too bad she have to leave to Australia so soon before we could even hang out shopping! But we all have fun that night. CHEERS!

Ju Reen & I

Someone really having fun here! Haha!
(Ju Reen & Adrianz)

I was having fun with the KL Tower!
Lolx!

She's really sweet =)

Ju Reen & Dear

Daven & I

Cuddles!

ME!

cheeeeessssy cheers!

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SLAP ME PLS!

2008-07-18T17:55:00.003+08:00

Can someone please slap me?! I'm so need to be slap! I have not been studying since Uni started! Instead, I'm lazing around watching One Tree Hill! Oh my gosh! But I love watching it although it gave me headache for crying so much. Everytime I reminded myself not to forget that I need to work hard for my studies so that I would be able to apply for scholarship to further my studies without worrying about the funds. I really wish I could at least use some help here.
Please show me the way You used to do Father. I have not been a good kid, I know. Every Sunday I will give some kind of stupid excuses for not being able to attend church but I was never try hard enough or at least put some effort in it. I'm sorry. But sorry will not lead me to an answer. Why must everything be so hard. So that we will learn through the hard way? What happended to the hardworking and optimistic me? What happended to the girl who loved reading? What happended to the simple least complicated girl who fell in love?
Aaaarrrrghhhh! SLAP ME!

Little Things That Cheers My Day

2008-07-15T20:37:00.013+08:00

Have not been feeling myself lately. Getting hyper sensitive and mood swing often these few days. Other than going to Uni I spent most of my time lying down on my bed watching One Tree Hill from day to night. It's called ever have the feeling of lethargy? Well, It happends to me very often.

So I tried to do some funny things with my soft toys to cheer myself up for the day. I know It's quite childish but I'm pretty simple. Little things could easily cheer me up. As long as the thought counts *HINT HINT* ^o^

Dear bought me this homie hat from Skirmish Paintball.
Aaaarrggghhh! The bloody tan me!

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Rusco wearing Gel Eye Mask
which I bought from Watson recently ^^

Ooohhh! Enjoying yourself eh arent ya?!
Hmmmmm...cooling sensation!

Animal Fun Soap from Watson.
DearDear bought it for me ")
It smell pretty nice!

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Introducing Cutie Little Puppie!

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Puppie promoting PENNI make up kit ^o^
LOLx!
I always easily get attracted with
cute cute little thingy =.=
which I dont use them most of the time.
Hahaha!

Comes with blusher & eye brush.

That's all for today! Chaoz!

Slave Of The Day

2008-07-09T00:40:00.011+08:00

Less than 4 hours of sleep due to Insomnia, I had to crawl out of the bed even I didnt want to. It was raining early in the morning yesterday, what a gloomy day. Tuesday is a hectic day as the schedule is really packed. Sigh! How I wish I could lie on the bed to get some decent rest.

During Ms.Wong lecture yesterday, she mentioned, "To get married, It's not about LOVE. There is NO LOVE once you got married but only responsiblity. Your parents didnt bring us to the world but GOD did." Somehow, I felt discomfort when she said that. Without LOVE, there will not even be a relationship at the beginning. To be together, to create a family of your own, It's part of the biggest decision to be made with someone you want to be with, to grow old with till the day you die. How could she says that It is NOT LOVE? I do agree that GOD is the one who bring us to this world as he created our life. But our parents It's the one we should be grateful of as they are the one who took care and protected us since the day we are born, most parents did.

Well, It was damn freaking tiring yesterday for all of us. Tuesday is officially a "torture session" for us =) I was half dead when I got home. Thought I could at least get some rest after taking bath but we were gonna have dinner out that night!!!! Arrrgggghhhh! OMG! Have mercy on me!

Dinner was reserved at Sunway Sun & Surf Resort. I didnt really get to enjoy my dinner, too tired to chew, plus I was having a bad headache, I just wanna sleep! However, the desserts really cheer me up a little. Hahaha!

Japanese foods

Appetizer = Oyster + Prawns

Indian Four Seasons T.T

Manhattan Snapper Filet

Lamb Steak

Dessert!

Black Sesame Winter Ball
(One of my favourite! ^^*)

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After dinner, I started to have this feeling to clean up my room which look more like a dog kennel. So I started cleaning up the room. Wipe wipe here! Wipe wipe there! Clean clean here! Clean clean there! Haaaaaaaa! Sparkling clean...... *Emi falling backwards*
Lolx! By the time I finished tidying up my room It's almost 12am. I shall call It a day now. *Snoooooooore Snoooooooore*

Summary

2008-07-08T01:05:00.014+08:00

Uni just started less than a week and I'm lazing around watching One Tree Hill. Haha! I know. So outdated right? Spent my weekend on paintball at Tanamera on Saturday where most of the time I basically did nothing. Finally get my ass to try out Speed Ball, hoping I would get a chance to shoot my Dear's butt. Lmao! Never really thought that paintball is so freaking tiring! After a few shots, I sat on the floor taking cover behind the airballon panting. Gosh!

My baby boy =)

Scenary taken at Lake Placid Tanamera.

Sometimes we wonder if we are taking the right path?

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Right now I'm printing out all the past exam papers which I didnt expect to be so much. *dizzy dizzy*

My apologies that I wont be able to blog much due to Uni work and most importantly "beuaty sleep" ^^= Chaoz! Ending this post with some pics taken for memories in moment of my life. "We remember moment but not days in our life".

There darling! The CD is ready.
Will pass it to you tomorrow at the Uni =)

Where I wanna be & where I belong =.=

Yet we are supposed to learn more about STRESS!

More to come.

Turns out I'm getting nerdier after all...

Look nice but I doubt I would finish doing the questions.
Hahahahha!

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Arrrrgggghhhh! GTG now! 6hrs of sleep before classes! GAR!
Love you all! Muaaaks!

Does It Really Matter?

2008-07-04T17:06:00.009+08:00

This world, is made out of reality and full of cruelty which is ugly, leaving tears behind deep down inside, somewhere behind the door, is the feeling of hurt. NEVER to be a sensitive person if you are living in this world. You will only get hurt everytime, everywhere. Just when you thought that someone is sincerely being a friend to you. A friend so called, is actually a backstabber. WHY bother to give such a hope when you never wanted it to be this way? Hope, breaks heart into broken pieces easily especially people like me. Leaving a deep ugly scar. How could you? Stop acting as if you even care about me. Stop leaving me behind if you ever treated me as a friend. A friend never leave one behind. Stop pretending as if you like me, the true me. I am no one pretending. Stop giving me hope as if you love me as a friend. Dont offer the love if you cant. I need you to be true. I need a friend to be truly sincere to me. I want no more lies, no more betrayal, no more.
How could you? I kept asking myself, does it really matter? Does it? ...... Just pls, STOP.

I've cried enough
Over the priceless time I've lost
I've learned the going gets too tough
Now you regret love
I've cried enough
What you'll see on my face again
Is nothing but the rain
I've cried enough

[] Lara Fabian – I've cried enough []

Goodbye Holiday.Hello New Semester!

2008-07-02T21:51:00.013+08:00

Holidays have come to an end. It's time to get myself busy with studies again. Just by staring at my new timetable, I can surely tell myself there will be no more beauty sleep till December. Damn! That sucks big time!
I have been over exhausting myself during the holidays but I must says It's worth it. Especially spending time with my love one and my dear friends =) No doubts Redang trip have make me broke but somehow I'm still shopping like a rich queen *Roll eyes* Hahaha! Maybe that's what pissing my DearDear off. But hey! He's been spending money too! And It's a lot mooooore, waaaaay more than the amount I spent. GRrrrr! One damn paintball gun already gonna cost him 1k plus. Cis! However, It's rare to see him to have such big interest over something which will cost him this much of capital amount. Should see him play sometime, he's really a player. *clap clap!!* [DONT get cocky if you ever read this part fat pig!]

Here's some photos I took during his latest paintbal game with our dear friend Sabrina Yeen and some IMU students at Xtion Paintball Bukit Jalil last Fri.

They will be another game coming up this Sat at Tanamera. =.= I'm gonna get damn freaking tired again hanging out at that place. Well, maybe I could take up more good pictures. [Damn sure this time I'm gonna charge you for each photos taken =) *BIG EVIL SMILE*]

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I'm always in love with pictures. A picture means a thousand words if u can see the beauty inside it. Really would like to have a chance to take up photography.

A scenary taken at Xtion Park Bukit Jalil.

I'm a nature lover ")

My Padini Denim Bag "P

lovin IT!

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Like I said, pictures mean a THOUSAND WORDS to me, to everyone and to the world. Here, I'm signing off this post with one of my favourite specially dedicated to my dearest Ashley Bear.

L.O.V.E - 4 letters equal to one word which is all I have to say, means my whole heart is for you, only you. [Dont be lazy now! "P Scroll down! Fatty! *^____________^*]

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All Good Things Come To An End

2008-06-28T22:01:00.006+08:00

My most recent favourite, "All Good Things Come To An End" by Nelly Furtado. *Thumbs Up*
Really fell in love with the lyrics and especially with the way she sang, with light harmony, relaxing melodies. Just driven me into my own world.

All Good Things (Come To An End) lyrics

Honestly what will become of me
don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is daily
We are what we don't see
Missed everything daydreaming

[Chorus:]
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Traveling I only stop at exits
Wondering if I'll stay
Young and restless
Living this way I stress less
I want to pull away when the dream dies
The pain sets it and I don't cry
I only feel gravity and I wonder why

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Well the dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Die die die die die

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Well the dogs were barking at a new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon
And the sun was wondering if it should stay away for a day 'til the feeling went away
And the sky was falling on the clouds were dropping and
the rain forgot how to bring salvation
the dogs were barking at the new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon so that they could die.

Redang Trip 2008

2008-06-25T23:00:00.059+08:00

Yes! I'm back from Redang trip! It was really fun and tiring due to the long hours of travelling time by bus. More like a BUMPER BUS actually. There were 7 of us. Four of us sat at the last end of the bus which is damn freaking bumpy! Whenever the bus started bumping, we were like being thrown up in the air. Seriously! Especially when we were asleep. Just imagine how It feels. Hahahaha!

We departed on Sunday night around 10.00pm at the PWTC Bus Terminal in KL. So excited as I cant wait for my first beach trip. *HappyHappy* The jorney was longer thanks to the driver for taking at least 5 times break. =.= Not only the bus was bumpy and it was like sitting inside a frezzer! We were almost frezzed to death. No jokes man!

Day 1
23rd June 2008

We arrived at Terenganu bus station around 6.15am. We were all tired and sleepy as we didnt get much sleep in the bus. The most blur person would be my DearDear as he thought we were already in Redang Island *Big Goooong* lmao!

Redang Reef Resort Travel Agent Office
(Dear thought this is where we were staying =.=)

We got picked up by the agent from Redang Reef Resort (R.R.R) straight as we arrived. We were dropped at R.R.R office which located at the China Town in Terenganu. The were historic buildings which attracted Elaine who love ancient stuff.
While waiting for pick up to the jetty, we went to have breakfast at the nearby hawker centre, where Keh Bin met his admire who gave him a lovey dovey gift! Buahahahah!

We arrived at Merang Jetty around 9.45am. Poor me who got motion sickness first puked on the journey to the jetty and then again on the way to the island. Sigh... What a sickcat =.=

Merang Jetty

Kelly Ho. Elaine

Elaine.Kelly Ho.Dear.Me.Keh Bin

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On the way to Redang Island!

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We are HERE!

Redang Reef Resort

We check in after a short briefing from the management. The room was not what I expected but It was not bad. However I really dislike the toilet coz It smell like pee pee! Yucks! I hate dirty toilet. After settle down, we went for lunch according to the schedule given.

0700am - 0900am Breakfast
0930am - 1130am Snorkelling
1200pm - 1300pm Lunch
1430pm - 1530pm Snorkelling
1600pm - 1700pm Tea Time
1900pm - 2000pm Dinner

Foods were okie but not appetizing. But I was really really hungry as my tummie was empty. After lunch, we went get ready for our first snorkelling!

Snorkelling at Marine Park was a great experience! Too bad we couldnt take picture underwater. There were many kind of colourful fishes and coral we could see. Some of the fishes came chasing at me and I got really frighthen even though they are so tiny. I was afraid the fish might eat me or something! Plus DearDear got bitten on the leg by fish. Hahahaha! Most probably the fish thought he was a bread coz he is so white. lolx!

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Sunnies babes!

Modelling pics!

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Too sexy for his shirt "P

I love my DearDear!

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Us!
@ The bridge connecting Laguna Redang & R.R.R

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During evening time, we went playing FRISBEE on the beach! Poor me got hit by the frisbee thrown by dumbmie DearDear while I was busy taking shots of everyone. GRrrrrr! Damn pain man my ear! *SMACK SMACK!*

FRISBEE CANDIDS!

Tim with full RAM!

Elaine Shy-Shy!~
Keh Bin Shoo-Shoo!~

Bergaya!

Ahahahah!
Dramatic Keh Bin "P

DearDear play like a little boy *^^=

I got it! Heheheh!

Effect of laughing gas

Soh Po -.-

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Love this pic!

Playing with sands ")

Me & BearBear "P

Candid shot

Looking up at the big blue sky

Sun bathing ^o^

My Kung Fu BearBear!
[Wonder what is he doing?]

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Aaawwww! So this is what he was doing <3>I LOVE MY HUGGY BEAR!

Now! My turn to draw!
TaaaDaaaa!

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@ More More Tea Inn

This seems wrong -.-'

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Sunset @ Laguna Resort

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To be continue......

Off To Redang Island

2008-06-22T03:56:00.003+08:00

Weeeeee! Will be off to Redang Island tonight for 3D2N with some of my classmates & my DearDear...... by bus! GOooooosh! My butts are so gonna get flatten. Hahaha! *^^ *humpiehumpiejumpiejumpie!*
Just finished packing my bag for the two of us about an hour ago. Got my toiletry bag, clothes, bikini, towel, lotion, ... bla bla blaaaa and volley ball and my brand new frisbee all ready!
Hoping for a safe trip and a joyful holiday ") Chaoooz!

Eat Eat Eat!

2008-06-21T17:57:00.014+08:00

Wow! I was like on an eating festival these few days. Burger, fries @ Carl's Jr; Pizza & cheese @ Marco's Pizza; Spaghetti, seafood, ice cream, pie & more cheese & pizza @ Italiannese... O.o Dang! Hehe! But It was so tasty! *^^= *Yummie YumYum "p*

Carl's Jr @ One U
Dear's favourite food now! "p
(I think he even dream of eating it =.=)

Onion. Yucks!

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JuiceWork @ The Curve

Stoning or Posing?

Only He can make me smile like this...
Like a "soh po" -.-

Here doggy doggy!

Bad doggy!!

GRrrrr!

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Finally! I watched Kung Fu Panda! Weeeee! It was hilarious and I believe the whole cinema room could hear me laughing like mad. Lolx!
I have to say the most funny part of the show is when Mantis was doing acupunture for Panda where he accidently poke his facial nerve. lmao! Seriously! I laughed till my tummie ache! Love it!! <3>

ESP BENKO Mascot

2008-06-19T15:43:00.015+08:00

Gosh! I love these BENKO plush toys! It's super adorable! Dear bring back one of these and It represents ESP (SG)Team mascot. There are total 5 of it, representing Brian, Kelvin, Meng, Dear & KC. Each of them have diffrent face espression and trust me! It really does look like the owner. Hahahaha!

Dear = GRrrr!

Brian = Naughty!

Meng = Shocky!

Kelvin = Crazy!

KC = Emo!

Humpie humpie!

GRrrrrrr!

OMG! Noooooo!
(Tsk Tsk Tsk!)

Let's go boys!

Buahahahahha!

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Cute right?! Hehehe!

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Note: Pics taken @ Blitz Cyber Cafe while waiting for Dear to finish training.

Huggy BearBear's Return

2008-06-18T13:38:00.007+08:00

Finally! After one whole week of waiting and final exam is over! My deardear is back! *happyhappy-winkie* And the most funny thing is, he gained weight! Haha! His cheeks are so chubby!

On Monday morning, I woke up around 9am and I was supposed to meet my friends at Sunway Piramid around 11am. Lying down on my big soft comfy bed, thinking about my deardear will be back tonight... =) I fell asleep again =.=... Well, woke up at 11am! Feeling a bit fever-ish and dizzy... OMG! I'm so late! Called Elaine and she is already on her way there. Pheeeew! Hurry up and get ready!

Arrived at Sunway Piramid around 12.15pm. Lolx! Everyone already started skating. This would be my second time skating but I'm still like a crappy fellow, cant even stay balance or even skate a little. Yish! How nice if I can skate at least a little. Poor Elaine fell a few times. Ouchy! Skating was fun though, thanks to Dini & Jess for willing to help me =) I manage to round the ring for a few times. Haha!

After having lunch at the Nando's. We went bowling. Gosh! I was so bad at the beginning! First 2 rounds = 0 (=.='') But I got my first STRIKE today after playing bowling for so many times! Weeeeee! I remember Shafiq kept on getting "twin tower" Lolx! After one game of bowling, most of us are already exhausted. Except Ker Bin who wanted to play one more game. Haha! Sorry man, gtg! "P

Went home. Jumped on the bed. *snore snore* (I know I'm such a sleepy lazy pig -.-) 7pm! Alarm buzzing beside my ears. It's 7pm! Dear will arrive around 8pm! Yipee! Drove to the Aeroline bus station at One-U after getting ready. Gosh! I was so exicted when I saw him. Haha! "p

He bought me a prezzie A piggie plush toy. It's very cute, chubby and It's 12 second voice recordable. Love it! Muaks! "p

Hurt

2008-06-15T02:12:00.002+08:00

Woke up crying in the middle of the night,
for only God knows what is the reason,
as tears would not stop coming down on my cheeks.
How I wish you would be here,
by my side.
You are the only person in this world that means everything to me
yet,
you are the one who hurts my feeling,
on the day I needed you the most.
Missing you makes me some kind of obsess.
Loving you makes me some kind of idiot.
Knowing you chosing something else over me,
just breaks my broken heart back into broken pieces...
... How could you?

6 Days. Apart.

2008-06-10T12:26:00.004+08:00

It's 7am in the morning when I woke up today and Dear is almost ready to go. Didnt go to the bus station with him coz I dont want to cry like a silly baby in front of his friends which I think I will. He kissed me on the forehead and told me not to worry about him and that he will call me everyday. I noded, knowing that this would be the first time we actually seperated for such long time. I hugged him before he left, my face was turning red. Argh! What a silly girl. He will be back in a week time! However, how I wish I could accompany him......I miss you baby......

Shopping Spree On!

2008-06-09T22:54:00.010+08:00

OMG! Today is the greatest shopping day ever. Dear & I spent almost the whole day in One-U and we didnt even realiaze that the shops were closing till we actually heard them closing their stores. Haha! I'm so happy! At the same time I'm overdraft too. I'm so so freaking dead. But think of the bag, denim jacket and xixili I bought today just make my day go round *^^=~ Likewise with DearDear too! He bought a classic casual jacket which cost him a bomb! =.= My gosh! But It really look good and sexy on him. lmao! I guess it's worth the money.

Both exhausted & tired.

While waiting for Dear's new jeans to get tailor,
we finally get a chance to buy a drink from JuiceWork & rest.

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During that afternoon, we went to Marco's Pizza for lunch. Really tasty! YumYum!

Dear said It looks like a PacMan. LOLx!

Marco's Special with
Turkey ham, cheese & Eggs.
Rating 8/10!

My Ash Bear!
Rating 10/10! =P

Bunnie! Bunnie!

2008-06-06T23:38:00.018+08:00

Weeeeeeee! Bunnie bunnie is so adorable! I'm so glad DearDear took me to NZX *^^=! We saw a bunch of cute fluffy bunnie & you only have to pay RM3 to play with them. The bunnie are quite friendly and they hop around with their fluffy butt and chase each other. Aaaaaawww how I wish they are all mine. Lolx! Get to take some of their pictures & I got BITTEN by one of them! Ouch man! It really hurts. Luckily I was wearing jeans, or else my leg surely bleed. Yish! Went to chase the suspect that bit me and I squeeze it a little. lmao! *evil grins*

This would be the naughty bunnie who bit me!
GRrrrrr!

cuddles!*LOVE LOVE*

I'm bringing sexy butts!

aaaawwww! cute!

OMG! This one look so funnie!
"Master Q Bunnie"
lmao!

NERD Mode ON!

2008-06-06T12:37:00.012+08:00

7 Days before final! It's really time to get quick with my studies. Cant waste any more time. Hehe! =.= But camwhore a little bit wont take too long. Hahahaha! What a whore =.=

Studying camwhore position =.= lmao!

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GRrrrr! I cant wait for my exam to be over! However, I'm kinda upset coz DearDear will be going to Singapore next week for 6 days. Means he wont be around after my final is over. *Tears*

How I wish I would be able to follow him there. Really worry about him travelling alone plus this would be his first time travelling out of the country =.= Haha! That's why I can see that he's really excited about this trip. Not only that, the reason why he's going over Singapore coz he have a tournament to attend. Reperesenting One of the Malaysia team, playing COD4 (Call Of Duty 4)!

Weeeee! ESP [WoW] is the BEST! *CHEERS!*

DearDear's ESP shirt =)
His nickname is Wolf! Wolfie would be cuter though =P

His first championship =)
May 2008 @ TBunz Aman Suria

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Hugs & kisses for my DearDear <3
Wishing you all the best in the tournament!
I'll miss you. Muuuaaaks!
Love, Bunnie ^^

Sunday Outing

2008-06-04T13:46:00.023+08:00

Finally its Sunday again! Went out on a date with my DearDear =) Supposed to catch a movie (IRON MAN! I'm so freaking wanna watch that show! *Tears* Poor me...) but both of us got tired looking at the long queue. So! we went to eat Sakae Sushi! *Drools*

Sakae Green Tea.

Pumpkin Chanwanmushi.

Sakae Deluxe Bento Package.

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Now! The effect of Washabi!

Lolx! He accidently drop his sushi into the washabi sauce.
Aaawww my poor dumbie baby...Hahaha!
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It was a great day. Totally love the sushi in Sakae, especially their pumpkin chanwanmushi *^^*!

After our late lunch, thought I could actually shop but DearDear wanna "beautified" his hair. So we headed to the salon but unfortunately It's closed. *Thinking: Dang! I could have shop!*

Sigh! We were both tired & I was thinking of sleeping while he wanted to go to the cyber cafe. *GRrrrr! Hammer time!*
But before that we are gonna have dinner with his parents first, and gosh! He suggested to eat at Manhanttan Fish Market. My tummie was still full......(@.@)

The hungry bear.

Me & Aunt Sharon =)

Manhanttan Fisher Plate for Two.
(Look more like for Four to me =.=)

Zzzzz! I'm gonna get real fat if I eat like this everyday. So Elaine, dont worry coz I'm gonna get real fat soon like a balloon. lmao!

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While eating at Manhanttan, DearDear saw one of the decoration board on the entrance. It says:

RULE NO.1
The Captain is always right.

RULE NO.2
If the Captain is wrong. Pls refer back to Rule No.1

Lolx!

Cinderella's Return

2008-05-31T22:40:00.018+08:00

Penang.Dec2007

It's been a long time since the last time I blog. If I remember correctly, I stop blogging after the trip to Penang on December 2007.

Ashton.Ashley.Dec2007

24hrs a day it's totally insufficient for a human being to complete daily tusk nowadays. How I wish it could be at least 30hrs a day. 12hrs of beauty sleep, 8hrs of Uni, 6hrs of revision(recently I'm officially a NERD), 2hrs of entertaiment, 2hrs of nice shower with my strawberry shower foam from BodyShop*winks*. THAT is my dream of life it should be.

January 2008 - "New Year. New Me."

Started working as a English teacher in Kumon Learning Centre on January 2008. What a surprise right? Lolx! I was actually planning on teaching Maths, somehow I got assigned to English. After starting working at Kumon, I realised that kids nowadays have no life. Really feel pityful for them. Parents are pushing them to be the best amongst the best. To think about it, they are just a kid, who are the most innocent angels that God have created. Who should be enjoying their childhood worrying nothing in this world.

February 2008 - Happy Cinese New Year!

One of the best CNY in our family ^^ Although I dont have a chance to shop much *tears*, but being able to be with people you love is the most important thing in life.

However, I started having serious Sinus problems due to unknown reason.

(Ashley: it's not unknown reason, it's ur freakng piggie causes it!)

(Emi: Yeah whatever =.= I will not give him away u pig!)

I sneeze like 8 times in a roll. Teary eyes and shortness of breath. Sigh! Call me a sneezing machine >.

March 2008 - Intake Starting! Finally!

I started my CAT course in Sunway Uni after graduated in Diploma in Chemical Engineering. To be honest, I'm not regret of taking the course or according to some people, wasted 2 and a half year of studies. I learnt, experienced it and at least, I didn't drop put half way. I completed it.

Starting of the course, I was worried of not being able to make friends due to the age differences. Thank God I met some girls who are now my friends =) I nvr have a best friend like anyone else. Best friend who studied in the same primary, high school and Uni with you. A best friend who will be there for you whenever you need them, no matter what. Every time when I think about it, I feel depressed.

My Dear Friends =)

People told me, I'm too sensitive to be normally happy with my life. Well, what do u expect from a Virgo who is born to be a perfectionist in this world. I get hurt over a small issue, too many bleeding scars inside me where no one could sees. Too beautifully perfect to be true......

April 2008 - Uni Life

Uni life is great *imagine me saying the "great" word with a teary face anime* Non stop of torture treatment from lecturer. Every 2 weeks we will have an exam. Before we could cope with the recent lesson, we are being tested with it. GRrrrrr! That explained why I'm officially a nerd now.

Discovery of Online Boutique! I've became a shopaholic thanks to online boutique. Really addicted to it. Like a drug addict. But I really rally love it and that makes me happy! Yes! Happy!

*DearDear at the side popping his head out saying : "Not so happy when you are broke you monkey!"

Lmao!

May 2008 - Exam Exam Exam *Goooong*

Basically I don't remember anything within this month except being a sick cat, insufficient of sleep and non-stop of examinations with lots of numbers going Mary-Go-Round inside my tiny little brain. What a life......

ElaineJinNean.

Emi.JettKyii.Kelly

Night @ Crowne Plaza KL

2007-12-12T01:18:00.000+08:00

Speaking of buffet. Crowne Plaza definately serve the best buffet. Good food, nice enviroment and delicious yummie dessert. *Drools* It's DearDear birthday eve. We went to Crowne Plaza to have a nice dinner where they serve Dear's favourite grilled "Slipper Lobster". YumYum! We sat at the same table again for the forth times. lolx! That's kinda our special spot. It was a great dinner. =) Happy Birthday Baby! I'll always love you. Muaksz!

Japanese food.

Dear's favourite. The "Slipper Lobster".

Ginseng Herbal soup.

Prawns...Lots of lots prawns...(@.@)

YumYum! Carbonara.

Prawns Terpanyaki.

Chochalate! Chochalate!

Custed Crepe topped with wintermelon ice cream. The best dessert I ever have.

Credits to the chef!

There you go! Crepe is ready to serve.

YumYum!

My Baby =) Love Love!

That's me =.=!

Oh my! It's so cold in here. I'm freezing >.<

Someone is turning 20 now! Buahahah!

Just the two of us. Complete the world.

Lepaking @ The Curve

2007-12-05T01:50:00.000+08:00

King Lee is finally back from Tasmania for holiday. *Welcome back!* So we've decided to go to sing K at RedBox! WooHoo! Here is one of the video I took during our happie hour! *ROFL* -Singing: You make me feel like dancing!...-

@ RedBox

Bishan.Jun.KingLee.Me.Ashton.DearDear

Jun.Bishan.Me

DearDear.KingLee.Ashton

KingLee.Jun

Snow white decoration

DearDear Huggy Bear!

Pick-A-Boo!

Pretty ladies! =P

Me.Bishan =)

Love this pic. =^^=

So cute!

*Drools* @Starbucks

Christmas

2007-12-05T01:31:00.000+08:00

Chirstmas is coming. Seems like a year is to be end soon and a new year is awaiting for us. Looking back the time, sometime I wish I was still a child. I used to get "christmas fever" every year when christmas is coming. I will be singing christmas song decorating christmas tree and dream about christmas movies and christmas presents and families and christmas party at the church and christmas dresses...and so much more. This year christmas, I feel a bit different. I feel...empty and dull...lonely...

Heart-Kun!

2007-12-02T01:15:00.001+08:00

Kawaii!~

A puppy has been born in Japan with a large clear,love-heart-shaped pattern in his coat.  The Chihuahua was born in May as one of a litter to a breeder.Shop owner Emiko Sakurada said it was the first time a puppy with the marks had been born out of a thousand she had bred She had no plans to sell the puppy, which has been named 'Heart-kun'. The long-coated male Chihuahua puppy was born in Odate, northern Japan.

Baby's Laugh

2007-11-05T11:56:00.000+08:00

Babies are always so innocent and cute. Look at the video below. The father of the child is so happy to see his baby laugh. So sweet! =)

Awareness Ribbons

2007-11-03T16:18:00.002+08:00

Awareness ribbons are short pieces of ribbon folded into a loop, which are used in the United States, Canada, Australia, UK as a way for the wearer to make a subtle statement of support for a cause. The meaning behind the awareness ribbon depends on its color. Many groups have adopted ribbons as symbols of support or awareness, and as a result, many causes often share each color. Some causes may also be represented by more than one color.

There are many colours and patterns of awareness ribbons in use today. Click here to check the meanings of each colour of the ribbon.

Halloween Babies

2007-10-30T18:47:00.000+08:00

Pumkin pumkin Halloween pumkin! Happy Halloween! Let's see, other than getting free candies treats or tricks, the best part during halloween is when you get the chance to dress your babies up into cute little costume. Take a picture of the babies. Hmmmm, sweetest memories.
Here's some pictures of cute little babies in their Halloween costumes. So freaking cute!

Panda Bear Sneeze Sneeze!

2007-10-25T20:58:00.000+08:00

*Waaaaaaaaah* The baby panda is sooooooo cute! I can't help laughing watching this video clip. Seriously! Check out this video.

Wanna know more about Panda Bear?
Click click!www.bearplanet.org
Love Panda! Save Panda!

Gossip Girl

2007-10-24T18:31:00.000+08:00

Gossip Girl, based on the popular teen novels, chronicles the lives of the exclusive and complicated vicious circle of New York's Upper East Side. The young, rich, and privileged teens attend the most elite of private schools, while dealing with sex, drugs and other teen issues. The series is narrated by the anonymous "Gossip Girl" who runs a blog about her fellow Upper East Siders and feeds them the latest gossip.

Here's the sneak preview of the Gosip Girl Season One *Clap Clap!*

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Blair.Dan.Serena.Nath.Chuck.Jenny

THE GOSSIP GIRL CASTs

Blake Lively
stars as
Serena van der Woodsen

Leighton Meester
stars as
Blair Waldorf

Chase Crawford
stars as
Nate Archibald

Pan Badgely
stars as
Dan Humphrey

Ed Westwick
stars as
Chuck Bass

Taylor Momsen
stars as
Jenny Humphrey

Gossip Girl Season One episode guide click click!

I particarlly love the fashion in this movie series! It's terrific!

Bev's Birthday @ Laundry Bar

2007-10-16T00:18:00.000+08:00

It's Bev's birthday! The birthday girl suggested to celebrate @ The Laundry Bar on Sunday night! *Winks winks* It was fun! At least not until we were told that FRIDAY's stuff are not "allow" to drink alcohol at The Laundry Bar. Geeeeeez! What kinda bullshyt is that? RAWR! I don't care! Stuuupid get lost! *Bleh*

Beverly. The Birthday Babe XOXO

Strawberries Mini! Sweet & Lovely.

Blow baby blow!

Bev.Kath

Posers =.= *Bleh!*

Sera.Mel. Lolx! Looking high babes!

Kath.Tisha.Me & my Bebe

From top left: Mel.Bev.Sera.Kath.Tisha.Emi

Promoting the Laundry Bar *winks winks snap snap*

Tisha sweetie & me! XOXO

Me & my Bebe. Huggy BearBear!

Ladies Night~ Cheeers!

Mel.Sera.CPeng & Me

A kiss for the birthday girl.
Shyt! I look drunk, but I'm NOT!

The ladies: (From left) Kath.Mel.CPeng.Sera.Me & Bev

Sera...poser sia!

Me & CPeng

A candid of Kath. ROFL! She look so PISS!
OMG! She's so gonna kill me for this *Fast fast! Hop hopie away!*

My favourite candid of Bev. Buahahahaha!
Mel is soooo cute!

Raya @ FRIDAY's

2007-10-15T23:32:00.001+08:00

First of all, sorry girls that I have been keeping you guys waiting for the pictures. It's Raya! *clap clap* Sara suggested that we should all wear Baju Melayu. lolx! It was so fun working on that day. Everyone were busy taking pictures, celebrating Raya, free foods *yum yum*. Wooohoo! Sweet memories... =)

From left: Kath. Emi. Sara. Dave. Sera. Adrian. Piggy. Bev. Tisha

The Datins

Kath. Piggy

Emi. Jeff

Emi. Bev

Lolx! Sara looking damn freaking happie =.=

FRIDAY's babe: Emi.Kath.Piggy.Bev

Emi.Piggy

Bev.Kath

Kath.Emi

Bev.Kath.Piggy.Sera

Sera.Piggy

Emi.Sera

Adli. Emi

Emi.Alvin

Tisha.Alvin

Emi.Dave(The most flirtatious manager! Beware!)

Emi.Piggy <3>

TGI's HuuuHaaa! Time

2007-10-11T16:29:00.000+08:00

The most enbarrassing moment of me working at FRIDAY's happended yesterday, when I was choosen to do the waiting list. It was wednesday, weekday, where FRIDAY's is not supposed to be crowded or whatever. Surprisingly, crowds appeared all right in front at the door, at the same time, waiting to be seated. I was damn panicking for It was my first time doing waiting list. *Tick Tock Tick Tock* Pass one hour, yet there's still customer showing up. =.= There are so many of them waiting to be seated till I can't even remember which one is who and who and who? Bla bla bla bla. The waiting list shows: Ms.Dutch Lady (10 pax)...Yeah..., Ms.Annie (3 pax), Mr.Zatch (2 pax), Mr.Brendon (4 pax/Smoking).....Oh yeah! Mr.Brendon, the hottie. Bla Bla Bla Bla Bla Bla...
Oh God! I'm so tired! I feel like shouting to the customer "Why don't you people have your dinner somewhere else?!! Goodness! There's Chili's upstair! Get Lost! Shoooh!......."
Then I saw Mr.Brendon (Wooooo! Hottie's back) walking towards me together with his friends. So I re-check my table available list but found that there's still no smoking table available. Sooooooo......

Me: Hi Mr.Brendon! You're back. I'm so sorry that I still don't have a table for you, sir.
Mr.Brendon: ......*staring at me silently* ......Buuut I alrdy have a table.
Me: *Face started blushing*
SPGs (Kath, Sophia, Ronald) : Buaahahahahah!

Sophia.Tisha.Intan.Emi

*Proudly present The FRIDAY's Hot babes Huuhaaa! Time.*

Here comes the imitation of Paris Hilton & Nichole Richie! =.= lolx!

Beverly Hill! Rolling like a celebrity!

Jeff! Living in his own world. *Dreaaam Dreaaam...Dream Dream Dream.*

Come and get me boiiii!

We are the babes! From left: Bev. Emi. Sophia. Kath. XOXO

Emi.Jeff

Jeff: "I'm so happie! So many girls wanna talk pictures with me. Buahahahaha!".....as if =.=

Emi.Sophia

Emi.Mel

Sophia.Kuhan-The only host in TGI's = The one to be bully *Bleh!* ~=^^=~

The future lawyer and the future editor =.= Huuha!!

ROFL! He was actually trying to be sexy but ended up gay-ish! *Muahahahahahahahah!!!*

Emi.Kuhan

My advise: Remember his face. Nvr ever forget his face. Coz next time when you need a lawyer. You'll nvr want him to be the lawyer! Buahahaha!

Kuhan.Jeff

Emi.Sera

Proudly present the GM of TGI's - RIZAL!
Well, Ex-GM actually =.=

Pick-A-BooOo!

Can you spot the fatty? Lolx!

Sophia.Kath.Sera.Rizal

TGI's ROX! XOXO! www.fridays.com.my

TGI's Hotline @ One Utama : 0377294822
TGI's Hotline @ The Curve : 0377266899

SOB Confession!

2007-10-11T01:49:00.000+08:00

Have you ever confess your sin before? Below is the most "interesting" sin confession I ever read about...... *wink!*

Girl : "Forgive me father for I have sinned."
Priest : "What have you done my child?"
Girl : "I called a man a son of abitch."
Priest : "Now why did you call him a son of abitch
my child?"
Girl : "Because he touched my hand."
Priest : "Like this?" (as he touches her hand)
Girl : "Yes father."
Priest : "That's no reason to call a man a son of
abitch my child."
Girl : "…but, but then he touched my breasts."
Priest : "Like this?" (as he caresses her breasts)
Girl : "Yes father."
Priest : "Surely, that's no reason to call him a son
of abitch my child."
Girl : "…but, but then he took off my clothes,
father."
Priest : "Like this?" (as he takes off her clothes)
Girl : "Yes father."
Priest : "That's no reason to call him a son of
abitch."
Girl : "…but, but then he stuck his you know what
into my you know where."
Priest : "Like thisss?" (as he sticks his you know
what into her you know where)
Girl : "OH YES FATHER, YES FATHER, YES
FATHER!!!"
(after a few minutes)
Priest : "…but that's no reason to call him a son of
abitch."
Girl : "…but, but father, he had AIDS!"
Priest : "DAMN THAT SON OF A BITCH!!!"

*Cheng Cheng Cheng!!!* ROFL! Serve you right whore!

Don't worry guys, It's just a joke. Lolx! We will all be safe to confess our sin. Well, there are people who even use the confession room as a place for a quickie! Seriously! Interesting enviroment...... Bleh! Wanna try it out? GrrrrrrrRrr!

Grey's Anatomy

2007-10-08T02:25:00.000+08:00

In Grey's Anatomy, It shows that everyone have a diffrent life. No one ever say It was easy. Everyone will have to go through things that they never wanted to. Sadness, happiness, every moments in our life with our family or friends, Is shown in this sitcom. The relationship between Derek Shepherd aka "McDreamy" and Meredith Grey; Preston Burke and Christina Yang; George O'malley and Callie Torres; Izzie Steven and Denny Duqutte......It's all about love between lovers and friendship and families. It's all about how life is like, how It's supposed to be......

Brandi Carlile - The Story

The part where Meredith drown. I cried... Not because she's dead or she might be dead, but It's that I can see how much sadness is in His eyes...

Kate Havnevik - Timeless

Here is the sneak peak of Season 4! Poor George have to go through another year of being an intern, together with Meredith's half sister, Lexie Grey! I LOVE Grey's Anatomy! WoooHooo!

As usual, Christina Yang is the one making the show more interesting. Lolx! Her hair is so funny. She might wanna look young since Burke left her on her wedding during Season 3 *Sweat*

American Next Top Model Season 7

2007-10-06T18:15:00.000+08:00

Jaslene

Natasha

Renee

Brittany

She looks weeeird or? kinky

Sexy Russian babe Natasha <3

Love her pose! Nice picture! Thumbs up

Brittany. A photogenic girl with attitude.

Jaslene the weirdo :S

Natasha the teacher's pet.

Renee the clown.

Brittany the top student in the class.

During the third shooting, the girls are required to take nude pictures with candy, lolipop and ice-creams! Yummy yum~yum.

OMG! She really need to gain some weight. She looks like a skeleton!

Nice picture! Somehow she seems to like to take pictures with her head tilted all time (=.=ll)

Geeez! Renee = hot and evil.

Love the way she take picture. She look so cute!

This time, the girls are asked to take pictures where they have to play the male role while the male models will play the female role.

Jaslene

Natasha

Renee

Brittany

Jaslene. She has a resemblence of Janice Dickenson.

Natasha/Nata. I love the happy Nata in the picture. She looks so sweet.

Renee/Nene

Brittany/Brit. She look so cute in the innocent way.

Eeeew! She's just bones bones bones and bones!

Natasha the hot babe!

This! is a PERFECT picture!

Perfect......

Brittany!

She looks so innocent in this picture.

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Somehow I still don't think that Jaslene deserve to be the winner of ANTM season 7. She does not have a personality of her own. All her pictures are just so normal. Nothing special. I prefer Natasha or Brittany. They both takes pretty pictures. However, my favourite girl was Renee. She's a pretty, hot mom =P

Good Bye September

2007-09-30T23:43:00.000+08:00

Time past so fast. September have come and end. Everything just seem to be happening too fast, I don't remember having a chance to take a clean, deep breath. Soon, It'll be Halloween. Then December where there'll be Christmas = end of year 2007. This year September, I turned 20; no longer 19. Kinda sad to realize that I can't behave like a child anymore. Responsibilty seems to be getting closer and closer. Shoulder is getting heavier. Not that I'm running away from it. It just that, I don't remember the feeling of being a naive, worry-less happy child. The feeling, just faded away, gone in memory. I wish I could be somewhere where I can be alone. Peacefully lying down on the fresh green grass. Looking up the sky. Feel the wind on my face. Take a deep breath and close my eyes. That feeling. It's so peaceful......Well, good bye September......

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends

Ring out the bells again
Like we did when spring began
Wake me up when September ends

Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars
Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are

As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost
Wake me up when September ends

World Peace

2007-09-29T23:58:00.000+08:00

A World Peace campaign which involved over 200 countries in the world was held at One-U today! Weeeee! We had a chance to stamp our palm print using nippon paint on the banner which was going to be send over to New York. Coooool babe~!

PEACE ^^

Me & Sweety Tisha ~^^~

Can you spot mine?

Da-Ta! That's mine! =P

Log on to the website to give your support for World Peace! Sign in your petition now! Thanks!

Happy Sleepy Baby

2007-09-27T16:23:00.000+08:00

OMG! Check out this cute little baby. Poor thing was trying to sleep but somehow her evil family kept on disturbing her! Lolx! She's so adorable with those cute eyes!

A True Love Story

2007-09-27T15:18:00.000+08:00

A love story I find it very touching and heart warming. I cried when I was reading it. *sob sob*

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~TRUE LOVE~

The story begin with a young couple who are deeply in love with each other, they are like a pair of love birds who can't be seperated. However, from the very beginning, the girl's family objected strongly on her dating this guy. Saying that it has got to do with family background and that the girl will have to suffer for the rest of her life if she were to be with him.(emi: what kinda bullshyt is this?! =.=) They believe that she will not be happy.

Due to family's pressure, the couple quarrel very often. Though the girl love the guy deeply, but she always ask him: "How deep is your love for me?"

As the guy is not good with his words,(emi: more like guys are naturally dumb ^o^ Opps! Sry ) this often cause the girl to be very upset. With that and the family's pressure, the girl often vent her anger on him. As for him, he only endure it in silence.
(emi: that's one of the good thing about guy)

After a couple of years, the guy finally graduated and decided to further his studies overseas. Before leaving, he proposed to the girl: "I'm not very good with words. But all I know is that I love you. If you allow me, I will take care of you for the rest of my life. As for your family, I'll
try my best to talk them round. Will you marry me?"
(emi: So sweet )

The girl agreed, and with the guy's determination, the family finally gave in and agreed to let them get married. So before he leave, they got engaged.

The girl went out to the working society, whereas the guy was overseas, continuing his studies. They sent their love through emails & phone calls.
Though it's hard, but both never thought of giving up.

One day, while the girl was on her way to work, she was knocked down by a car that lost control. When she woke up, she saw her parents beside her bed. She realized that she was badly injured. Seeing her mum crying, she wanted to comfort her. But she realized that all that could come out of her mouth was just a sigh. She has lost her voice......

The doctors says that the impact on her brain has caused her to lose her voice. Listening to her parents' comfort, but with nothing coming out from her, she broke down.

During the stay in hospital, besides silence cry,.....it's still just silence cry that companied her. Upon reaching home, everything seems to be the same. Except for the ringing tone of the phone. Which pierced into her heart everytime it rang. She does not wish to let the guy know. & not wanting to be a burden to him, she wrote a letter to him saying that she does not wish to wait any longer.(emi: *hands reaching for a box of tissue* )

With that, she sent the ring back to him. In return, the guy sent millions & millions of reply, and countless of phone calls,.. all the girl could do, besides crying, is still crying....

The parents decided to move away, hoping that she could eventually forget everything & be happy.

With a new environment, the girl learn sign language & started a new life. Telling herself everyday that she must forget the guy. One day, her friend came & told her that he's back.

She asked her friend not to let him know what happened to her. Since then, there wasn't anymore news of him.

A year has passed & her friend came with an envelope, containing an invitation card for the guy's wedding. The girl was shattered.

When she open the letter, she saw her name in it instead.

When she was about to ask her friend what's going on, she saw the guy standing in front of her.

He used sign language telling her "I've spent a year's time to learn sign language. Just to let you know that I've not forgotten our promise. Let
me have the chance to be your voice. I Love You."

With that, he slipped the ring back into her finger. The girl finally smiled.

Love...
We come to love not by finding a perfect person...
but by learning to see an imperfect person...
Perfectly.

LOVE

2007-09-25T15:21:00.000+08:00

(This poem is dedicated to my dearest Ashley)

Every morning,
You kiss me on my forehead,
Wispering into my ear,
Telling me how much you love me,
And When I open my eyes,
You were always there;
Looking into my eyes,
and you smile;
It's like a routine,
Like we will be doing this,
For the rest of our life;
The way you hold me in your arms,
Makes me feel like we were made for each other;
When I'm upset,
You hold me tight,
Even if I'm not saying anything,
You wipes away my tears;
You make me laugh,
You love my smile,
coz it warmmth your heart;
You love my hairs,
coz i smell like chamomile;
You love to tickle me,
coz you love the way i laugh;
Hold my hands,
and we run;
We sometimes look back,
Remembering every moments we have,
Sit here wondering what makes you mines?
Looking at our pictures,
I smile,
Sometimes I even cry;
It only takes me a moment,
To remember your smile,
For I will always know,
That you are the love of my life,
That this love is worth my while,
Love is the greatest of all things,
and when all things are gone,
Love will remain,
My love shall remain,
Our Love will remain,
Eternal <3>

Shoes Fever Season!

2007-09-24T00:36:00.000+08:00

WoooHooo! Once in my life time, 8 pairs of new shoes shine right front of my eyes. Great-ricious!

I like this one =) Sweet design and at the same time It looks decent.

Goes well with Jeans/casual wear. Love the colourful beads!

I always have a thing for ribbon. It's just so sweet and trendy! Love the colour of this shoes. *winks winks*

Polka dots! Goes perfectly well with white ribbon ~^^~ Love it! I love it!

Sexy black and elegance. *smokie* (It'll be great if there's hot red)

Green! Cute and punky~!

Golden wedges. Party time baby!

Sweet red =) or devil red?

Dear & I <3

My Piggy Rouffie

2007-09-23T05:31:00.000+08:00

It was 15th of July, 2007, the day I found Rouffie at the pet shop. Hahaha! My piggy! Rouffie! (~^^~) Actually, my Dear wanted to give me a birthday surprise by giving me a guinea piggy. Unfortunately, I couldn't wait so long till my birthday which is on September. Lolx!
It's been two months now and Rouffie is getting closer and more attach to me. Guinea pig loves attentions once they are attached to you. Thus, they tends to make different variation of noises (distinct high pitch squel) which express their feelings such as lonely, angry, curios or stress. (Click here to listen to guinea pigs cute noises!)
Basically, guinea pig eat fruits and vegetables. However, a guinea pig's body can't produce vitamin C by their own. Lacking of vitamin C causes scurvy. Scurvy in guinea pigs causes eye infections, hair loss and pneumonia. Therefore, It is best to feed them foods which contains high percentage of vitamin C as a daily source such as carrots, tomatoes, capsicum, spinach, and hay. Guinea pigs pellets are normally fortified with vitamin C. However, the vitamin C tends to dissapear after a few months of storage. Therefore, I suggest that It would be better if vitamin C (Ascorbic Acid) is added into thier drinking water. Guinea pigs drink a lot and they love to run the water out of the drinking bottle.
Guinea pig are not actually pig althought they eat a lot like a pig. =.=ll *Sweat* They are cavies which is the best idea as a family pet. Little creature who need to be handle with cares. Every guniea pig have their own personality, as for my piggy, he's stubborn at the same time he's silly and greedy. Haha! He's so adorable! XOXOXO!

Rouffie

Breed : Abyssinian

D.O.B : 15th of May 2007

Gender : Male

Personality : Stubborn, Silly, Greedy

Loves : Capsicum

About Cinderella

2007-09-22T23:02:00.000+08:00

A girl who's abandon by her mother, who's after her own happiness. She accepted the fate, feeling unwanted and homeless for the exchange of her mother's happiness. No tears coming down her cheeks, heartbroken leaving a deep scar which can never be heal. Never, that she will trust anyone again. Praying day and night asking God for faith, He is the only person. Standing strong on the ground believing that everything happend for a reason. Living her life in a dark shadow, thinking if she is being abnormal? Life have changed, totally. Always afraid that someone she love will leave her, just like her mother left her. Living in this such cruel world, makes her wonder, why? Can anyone ever understand her? Anyone cares? She never ask for symphaty, because it shows that you think she's weak. In fact, she not. All she ask is, be happy and appreciate of everything that's going on in your life. Everything God does, He does it for your best, for a reason, that He hope you will understand, one day.